Yup, I'm feeling muuuccchh better now.
thanks to all who have shown concern.
I spoke to my Dad last night and he really taught me some valuable values as a leader.
I've managed to sort things out.
so that's good.
It's sunshine after a storm
Yu Guo Tian Qing
oh btw, I had my A'level chinese oral on monday and I have to say I'm pretty confident of my performance.
I think I did good but when I say that, I don't mean 'good relative to others'.
my mandarin standard is far away from the others.
yep.
Endurance training today was not bad.
there was definitely an improvement
so guys, jia you!
our masters is only 5 weeks from now!
alright, here's another HolyHo's production! :)
this video just simply sums up my mood =)
ok, Dragonboat is a very competitive sports.
I have a competitive team.
just watch.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Trash Talk 2
Trash talk today was a disaster for me.
Alright, let's face the fact.
The fact is that our team is weak.
Mr Hee said that himself
and I totally agree.
some of the girls are even stronger than some of the guys.
Besides being weak, there're alot of problems within the team as well.
The seniors and the J1 excos felt that there is a need to address the issues once and for all.
That was why there was a trash talk session today.
Let me tell you what we excos kinda planned to do during the trash talk.
We all agreed on shooting those whom we think needed to improve, be it their attitude or fitness.
After xue wei did his little introduction and Ikhtia lectured the team a little bit.
It was my turn to speak.
I stood up and started shooting Terence regarding his attitude.
There was no doubt that there was a problem with his attitude but I admit I had gone a little too far.
I didn't approach it well.
I lost myself.
So at this very moment.
I would like to apologise for my rashness.
I'm sorry for shouting at the team and especially at Terence.
My bad.
SORRY
Anyway, I would like to explain my bit.
Alright, after recieving the vice-captain post.
my seniors gave me plenty of advices.
They urged the excos to step up early and take control.
and they also told me that out of the excos, definitely one will bound to be the "bad" one.
Today, I did tried and be firm.
And judging from the team's comments, I guess I stepped over the limit.
And through out the rest of the session, I could see Brandon was serious when he spoke but I just felt the he was holding himself back.
And I thought Xue Wei was being a little too nice.
Overall, I was just Damn disappointed with the session.
Because people whom I expected to speak up didn't.
Moreover, my idea of a trash talk was different from the majority of them.
but I mean, its not called TRASH TALK for nothing.
And half of the team didn't even say a single word.
Some of them commented about the way excos do things.
I'll just pick a few and say my piece.
1. They felt that we were acting too authoritative and acting "big".
This is it.
From Day 1 when I was appointed the vice-captain.
That was the top of my worry list.
I was afraid of stepping up for fear that they would label me as "acting big".
So it did come true.
Let me tell you this, the only leadership position that I remembered holding was a mere chairperson during sec 1.
And since then, I had that fear.
I might have gone too far today when I stepped up for the first time.
but I'm sure this is a good beginning for the times to come.
I hope so.
2. You guys complained that we should have informed you guys that we were going to do 100 push-ups after gym training last week.
but my point is this.
The push-ups that we made you guys did was a punishment.
training and punishment are 2 seperate issues altogether.
Do you remember the seniors pumped us after a rowing session?
Did they inform us that we're going to be punished after a tiring rowing session?
And did you guys complain to them for not informing you guys in advance?
Think about it.
At the end of the talk, you guys changed the subject and started discussing about forming a dragonboat study group.
Yes, it's a great idea.
and i'm not saying that studies aren't important
but discussing it during TRASH TALK??!!
WTF!
Alright, the talk today is screwed and I fucked up.
And that'll be the very last trash talk we gonna have because it doesn't work on our team.
After what happened today, some of you might hate me a little
Although I did cross the line, I didn't regret being firm.
You can hate me for now.
But I hope that you guys will see the rationale behind it someday.
I may not be a good vice-capt, but I'm trying to.
And I appeal for your support.
This past week has been tough.
Bad results.
Tiring Leadership Training Camp
And I really fucked myself up today.
Especially after today, I feel so fucking fucked up.
I mean... It just didn't go my way.
It was really difficult for me to scold Terence.
He's my friend afterall and because of his attitude during trainings I had to do what I did.
Otherwise, who will?
Why would I want to make enemies?!
I could have sat there and keep quiet.
Its just not me
This is the first time I scolded somebody so badly.
I'm not that kind of person.
I'm feeling really lost right now.
I need somebody to talk to
I wanna talk to my sister but she just left tonight for genting and won't be back until 4 days later.
My life sucks right now.
I didn't know I was so weak emotionally.
FUCK IT!
Alright, let's face the fact.
The fact is that our team is weak.
Mr Hee said that himself
and I totally agree.
some of the girls are even stronger than some of the guys.
Besides being weak, there're alot of problems within the team as well.
The seniors and the J1 excos felt that there is a need to address the issues once and for all.
That was why there was a trash talk session today.
Let me tell you what we excos kinda planned to do during the trash talk.
We all agreed on shooting those whom we think needed to improve, be it their attitude or fitness.
After xue wei did his little introduction and Ikhtia lectured the team a little bit.
It was my turn to speak.
I stood up and started shooting Terence regarding his attitude.
There was no doubt that there was a problem with his attitude but I admit I had gone a little too far.
I didn't approach it well.
I lost myself.
So at this very moment.
I would like to apologise for my rashness.
I'm sorry for shouting at the team and especially at Terence.
My bad.
SORRY
Anyway, I would like to explain my bit.
Alright, after recieving the vice-captain post.
my seniors gave me plenty of advices.
They urged the excos to step up early and take control.
and they also told me that out of the excos, definitely one will bound to be the "bad" one.
Today, I did tried and be firm.
And judging from the team's comments, I guess I stepped over the limit.
And through out the rest of the session, I could see Brandon was serious when he spoke but I just felt the he was holding himself back.
And I thought Xue Wei was being a little too nice.
Overall, I was just Damn disappointed with the session.
Because people whom I expected to speak up didn't.
Moreover, my idea of a trash talk was different from the majority of them.
but I mean, its not called TRASH TALK for nothing.
And half of the team didn't even say a single word.
Some of them commented about the way excos do things.
I'll just pick a few and say my piece.
1. They felt that we were acting too authoritative and acting "big".
This is it.
From Day 1 when I was appointed the vice-captain.
That was the top of my worry list.
I was afraid of stepping up for fear that they would label me as "acting big".
So it did come true.
Let me tell you this, the only leadership position that I remembered holding was a mere chairperson during sec 1.
And since then, I had that fear.
I might have gone too far today when I stepped up for the first time.
but I'm sure this is a good beginning for the times to come.
I hope so.
2. You guys complained that we should have informed you guys that we were going to do 100 push-ups after gym training last week.
but my point is this.
The push-ups that we made you guys did was a punishment.
training and punishment are 2 seperate issues altogether.
Do you remember the seniors pumped us after a rowing session?
Did they inform us that we're going to be punished after a tiring rowing session?
And did you guys complain to them for not informing you guys in advance?
Think about it.
At the end of the talk, you guys changed the subject and started discussing about forming a dragonboat study group.
Yes, it's a great idea.
and i'm not saying that studies aren't important
but discussing it during TRASH TALK??!!
WTF!
Alright, the talk today is screwed and I fucked up.
And that'll be the very last trash talk we gonna have because it doesn't work on our team.
After what happened today, some of you might hate me a little
Although I did cross the line, I didn't regret being firm.
You can hate me for now.
But I hope that you guys will see the rationale behind it someday.
I may not be a good vice-capt, but I'm trying to.
And I appeal for your support.
This past week has been tough.
Bad results.
Tiring Leadership Training Camp
And I really fucked myself up today.
Especially after today, I feel so fucking fucked up.
I mean... It just didn't go my way.
It was really difficult for me to scold Terence.
He's my friend afterall and because of his attitude during trainings I had to do what I did.
Otherwise, who will?
Why would I want to make enemies?!
I could have sat there and keep quiet.
Its just not me
This is the first time I scolded somebody so badly.
I'm not that kind of person.
I'm feeling really lost right now.
I need somebody to talk to
I wanna talk to my sister but she just left tonight for genting and won't be back until 4 days later.
My life sucks right now.
I didn't know I was so weak emotionally.
FUCK IT!
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Untitled
Hey eugene and weilun
I would love to join u guys on saturday but unfortunately I'm going for a leadership training camp.
friday to monday.
I really miss u guys.
It sounds wrong but whatever.
We seriously need to catch up with one another someday :)
Alright, a quick update before I continue packing my barang barang
Took part in Singapore DragonBoat Festival last week.
unlike Masters and Nationals, it was 800m races..
I'll skip the results
but I know all of us did good in one way or another
however, we too know that we need to buck up if we want to contend for a medal next year.
guys and girls work hard!
I've gotten back my maths and chemistry papers
44% for chemistry, that's a S
54.5% for maths, that's a D
I'm not smiling, neither am I crying.
I know I'm capable of better results
but looking at the effort that I put into this mid-yrs
I don't deserve anything better.
I don't blame dragonboat for my bad results, and will never.
It was totally my fault
This was the first time that I took an examination so lightly.
I just couldn't focus on my studies during the June holidays.
Yes, I need to change my attitude
And I swear I would.
From now till next year,
it's the period to bust my ass in the gym and on the track to get my fitness level up.
I have plans
and my intensive training starts now.
DB-ers, if you're reading this
I would strongly encourage you guys to come up with a goal and a personal training plan that is beyond our official trainings.
We have ALOT to be done
Jia You!
So with Studies and Trainings
The inevitable thought of closing this blog did cross my mind.
Anyway, I've decided not to close it.
I would just update it as much as I can :)
I would love to join u guys on saturday but unfortunately I'm going for a leadership training camp.
friday to monday.
I really miss u guys.
It sounds wrong but whatever.
We seriously need to catch up with one another someday :)
Alright, a quick update before I continue packing my barang barang
Took part in Singapore DragonBoat Festival last week.
unlike Masters and Nationals, it was 800m races..
I'll skip the results
but I know all of us did good in one way or another
however, we too know that we need to buck up if we want to contend for a medal next year.
guys and girls work hard!
I've gotten back my maths and chemistry papers
44% for chemistry, that's a S
54.5% for maths, that's a D
I'm not smiling, neither am I crying.
I know I'm capable of better results
but looking at the effort that I put into this mid-yrs
I don't deserve anything better.
I don't blame dragonboat for my bad results, and will never.
It was totally my fault
This was the first time that I took an examination so lightly.
I just couldn't focus on my studies during the June holidays.
Yes, I need to change my attitude
And I swear I would.
From now till next year,
it's the period to bust my ass in the gym and on the track to get my fitness level up.
I have plans
and my intensive training starts now.
DB-ers, if you're reading this
I would strongly encourage you guys to come up with a goal and a personal training plan that is beyond our official trainings.
We have ALOT to be done
Jia You!
So with Studies and Trainings
The inevitable thought of closing this blog did cross my mind.
Anyway, I've decided not to close it.
I would just update it as much as I can :)
If you want to row,
TRAIN.
If you want to win,
TRAIN HARDER.
STUDY HARD
TRAIN HARDER
NYDB
TRAIN.
If you want to win,
TRAIN HARDER.
STUDY HARD
TRAIN HARDER
NYDB
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